Too Optimistic to be Fearful ♥

What if he goes and talks to her again…? What he flirts with her? What if he tells her about what a horrible girlfriend I am?

He wouldn’t do that… He can’t, that’s not fair.

But What if he did… Would he tell me? He wouldn’t cheat but he’d flirt… Is that cheating? Does he realize how much I regret saying all that stuff? Sure it needed to be said but if I could take it all back I would. Things would be so different. I may have believed that it was true, and it could’ve been true, but I could’ve kept it to myself. Vented it to someone else. Ya know, I’m always telling people to not be afraid to talk to their significant other about any issues. But I can’t do that with him because he always takes it offensively. I wish I could patch all this up. But I just can’t this time… I wish you would try sometimes. I’m so sorry about all of this… Please just talk to me… I want to fix this. Yell at me. Cuss me out. Hurt me. Call me names. Anything to make you feel better… I don’t care about me, I know I’ll be okay in the end, I always am. I just want you to be okay… Let me fix this somehow… This will NOT be the end. Because if it is, I don’t know what I would do. I wouldn’t kill myself. But the results could be scary… I can’t let this be the end. I will fight for you. I won’t stop, either…